I think that every boy's major goal is to be the night in shining armor. one could argue that it seems that the only main goal we pursue is sex, really, even that is a step, albiet a misguided one, toward that longstanding goal. It's a short cut to that feeling, and so most, if not all guys tend to want for it. however, even more fulfilling is to be the one to "save" the girl, whoever she may be, from whatever seems to be holding her back, from the little girl version of this Knight in Shining Armor wish, To be a princess. to be loved, seen as beautiful and special and kind and wise and compassionate. to be loved, in short, by the very knight that every boy aspires to be, as well as by the lesser folk, the not knights. I want to be a knight. I want to ride into life and slay dragons and be seen as good and honorable and just and loving and compassionate. I want to rescue my princess.
But, perhaps at the same time, I want to be a scallywag. a vagabond. a ranger. taking what i need from life to fulfill my own desires. maybe thats the paradox. inside every boy, hell, every person, there are two conflicting personas. the Valourus knight/Beautiful princess, and the Rapicious vagabond/Scandalous wench. maybe what eventually asserts where you fall outwardly is the varying degrees of these that exist inside of you? I dunno. All I know is that I am freaking out because I don't know how to doublethink. I can't hold two ideas of myself at once. my brain is going to explode next time i'm forced to think about this. bleh.
Happy Easter/Passover/Spring Solstice, by the way. Hope you enjoy it. Drop me a line. i'm feeling lonely. peace, kids.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Every Girl a Maid, and Every Boy an Urchin
Posted by Benjamin at 1:18 PM
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Why the hell are you feeling lonely? I only live five miles away, and the distance is even shorter if you get on MSN...
For what it's worth, I COMPLETELY understand what you mean. Part of me wants to be a straight up pearls and lace lady, to wear gloves and gasp whenever someone says a naughty word. At the same time, I wanna be, quite simply, a bad ass.
But I think more than wanting to be one or the other, we want someone who will go to a ball, dress up and be civilized, then sneak into the closet and make hot dirty love.
Metaphorically, of course.
But ya know? Someone who will love the DID [damsel in distress] as much as the flawed, not as awesome, parts of us.
When you figure out life, the universe, and everything... Let me know, eh?
cuz I'm trapped at home by this report hanging over my head :/ I probably won't even do it, but procrastinate till tommorow, and the next day, and the next day, and then fail :[ blech.
I did just buy some shit, though, so I feel a little better :p and I have no MSN, actually. I probably should get one, but it tends to eat up all my time when I do :P
Thanks though, and hopefully I'll figure out L.U.E soon enough :]
You can always be the robin hood. A combination of the galant knight and the rebelious vagabond. I completely understand what you are saying.
-B
Robin hood's always been the hero I loved most, I don't know how he's avoided my notice this past few days :p leave it to you, blake. thanks.
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