omg kids!

i did this from my phone :] sadly, this costs monies, so its both the first and the last time. i hate this class. english that is. thats the bell. peace

:O

the only man who is really free is the one who can turn down an excuse for dinner without giving an excuse -jules renard

So true. I hope someday i can learn to do that. I hope someday to be able to turn people down and not worry about there feelings. "no, I don't want to hang out, no, I don't want to talk, no, I don't want to make excuses for you. I'm going to look after myself and the things I feel I want to look after." maybe its selfish, but it sounds very relaxing. I dunno.

So, I'm getting a new phone early. so thats a pro. also, me bruddah got Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess yesterday. its hella fun, so I been playing that. even more on the up and up: THE OFFICE! all day tommorow. and then the new whatever scary movie at 7 :] should be a good v-day. then, wed. is RENFEST wich oughtta be bitchin, as I havn't gone in two years :] a little oddity there, I'll be using the phone that we had to buy used off the internet the day after renfest because I lost my phone at renfest 2 years ago.AND I'll be gettin the new one the very next day :P weird how you can see circles that probably don't even exist outside your own head.

Its hella late. g'night. england prevails

You know

I'm really kind of sick of this whole thing. why do people feel the need to hide under annonymity?
And why does it always seem to hurt my kimberly? I don't know if this time it was the same douchefags or a different one, but seriously? I just don't get what your problem is to hurt someone and then not even have the guts to put your name on it. and dragging someone else into the whole thing is fucking low as well.

christ. why?

"if you love someone, let them go,
if they come back, they're yours forever,
if not, they never were"

never has that quote looked scarier. But the truth of it is there, and I hope God, if he's there, is with me on this one, because I've not loved harder ever before.

and yet again.

Damnit. I don't know how to act around people. I've always thought myself pretty good in social situations, be they one on one or in a group. but apparently I'm not. Instead of putting everyone at ease, I misread one person, and in doing so, apparently acted like I wanted to get away from the other one. and I guess under normal circumstances this would be not that big of a deal, but when the one who I upset is Kimberly, It kindof pisses me off that I screwed up so righteously. In concern for Hair's seeming "uncomfortableness", I made it seem like I was blowing her off. Now I feel like a complete fucking douche, and she feels unwanted, and its my fucking fault.

damn it.

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Dear Ms. Abel:

As for the meeting tommorow, I would request that this team meeting you proposed be a meeting only between the offending parties and the...offended?

I know it sounds like I'm just trying to save my ass from embarassment, but I always used to hate going to meetings where I was in no way in the wrong. it accomplishes nothing and only serves to hurt moral, and feelings that don't need to be hurt. I don't think the team needs that. they did nothing wrong, and as such, don't deserve punishment. were this a recurring problem, I could see the whole team meeting thing, but seeing as it was me who instigated the ordeal, I would be inclined to say that I should be the one to take the heat, not the rest of the team.

If you still feel it does need to be made an example of, I'll gladly apologize publicly, in front of the team, the school board, or whatever, but the lecture should only fall on the guilty parties shoulders.

thanks for reading this. As always, the descision is yours, being coach and all, but I just had to get my concerns on the table.

thanks,
Ben

Well, hello there.

I just realised, that I've not been chronicalling my "adventures" near well enough

lesse...

I need a job. badly. but I never remember this. even when I do I completely blow it off. Its no longer just an I want money thing. I've got a year to start a financial base to start two lifes with. A year till I am responsible for the well being of myself, and someone else. Its a huge reallity check. I in no way regret the choices I've made, and as I've said before, our lives will be awesome, couldn't ask for a better lady. but its just a big responsibility, and I've gotta step up. Big step.

Speaking of my leading lady, she been having some tough times lately, and yet she's still holding together. she doesn't even know how proud I am of her. whe I tell her, its always "well, its only because I'm used to it". Personally, I think its a pretty admirable feat to get though her life and still be sane, but maybe thats just me. love you, babydoll :]

Schools getting harder, but I think I can make it. its sure teaching me how hard college is gonna be, thats for sure. but at the same time, its fun. I do enjoy a challenge.

I love reading stories so much. Its so relaxing to read to someone. I think I wouldn't mind becoming like a book reader for like audio books or maybe like a library. it would just be cool.

I think I can honestly say I have two best friends now, wich is really cool. don't think I've had a good guy friend in god knows how long. prolly since jr. high. its a cool feeling. even if he does have a small dick :P sorry, Hair.

so...yeah. thats me.