Hmmm.

even though this year's kinda sucks, I think new years in general is my favorite holiday.probably because its one that I don't feel like I'm missing out on a vital aspect (the religious one, for those of you who don't know me.) sure, it can be religious if you want it to be, and I'm glad it can be, as it means that everyone can enjoy it. as for me, its a time tocelebrate progress, wich I think is one of the most deserving of things to celebrate. I love to look back and see who I've become. its really kinda cool. nothing post, as always.

happy new years guys.

peace

Jealousy is indeed a poor medium to secure love, but it is a secure medium to destroy one's self-respect.

Emma Goldman

This is the quote that I most need to take to heart, I think. I hate my jealousy.

BITCHES!

how many of you read my blog?

Why the change in name?

I've been wanting to change the URL and name o' the blog for a long time, but could never find anything that I liked. why did I wanna change?

well, my cup isn't empty anymore (pause for laughs, that's-what-she-saids, and lewd cracks about how small my penis is). okay. you done? thanks.

anyhow, I think when I started this, I wasn't really aware that I was growing up, but now, I think i've grown alot as a person over the past year, and as such "filled up my cup" a bit. I mean, I'm obviously not exactly brimming with wisdom yet, but I've grown, and my person is a little fuller and uniquely me now as the year comes to a close.

and I've got you guys to thank. all of you that read this have played a pretty fair part in that process, and continue to contribute, some more or less than others, but all important. so there you have it. no longer an empty cup, but a body of ideas, a cacophony of voices. an immense anatomy of sound, to be cultivated and shaped into me.

I'm ready for the new year.

peace

The verdict

Disclaimer: I do not base Christmas happiness on material possessions garnered from under the tree. this is merely my list and thoughts on what I got.

1.)Snowboard!
-very awesome, I don't have to rent anymore! excellent. hair, we're goin up the mountain soon, kay? I wanna go so bad now. it's weird, cuz my dad bought it an hour before I brought Kimberly in to big 5 to see it. its funny.

2.)Magnetic poetry board
really cool, thats what kickstarted the poem I just posted on the SKWB. its a bunch of magnetic words and a black metal board. it's so cool.

3.)Lego set(droid gunship)
awesome :] I havn't gotten legos in like four years :O

4.)Brisingr[book(inheritance no.3)]
the first two were good( eragon, eldest) but I've forgoton to much of them to read this. have to read those again first.

5.)a new journal
it 's like my little black book, only leather colored. vusing it as my poetry book, seeing how my old one is lost or something.

6.)Risk
exellent game

7.)an RCA mp3 player that refuses to work with iTunes. figures. oh well, I'm sure I'll find some use for it.

8.) a set of speakers in a water resistant sunglasses case
odd, I know, but kinda cool at the same time. haven't got a chance to try them out yet, so go figure.

9.) A SPECIAL EDITION COPY OF "DUNE"!
it's so pretty. origional art from the first publication, gold leaf pages, engreaved cover, leather cover. that bitch looks like a bible. it's awesome

most special of all( if you have a weak stomach, turn away now) :...

10.)My Kimberly Anne's micky mouse clock
wich she gave to me for safe keeping :]

awesome christmas.

ummm...

So I think the little letters you have to type in to confirm you aren't a robot are trying to communicate. it's scaring me a little. a week ago I was getting things like "kasjdfhi" and "jkjufo", but now I'm getting "tumbs" and "deacak". if things keep progressing this way, by next week i'll be getting things like "saveme" and in a month or so "diiieeee,hummmaannn!". yeesh. technology is fucking scary

I'm a lame blogger, I know...

2008 IS ALMOS​T OVER,​ WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?​

Staye​d singl​e almos​t the whole​ year?​
nope. not been single at all :O

Lost someo​ne?​
perhaps. I dunno.


Cut class​?​
nope. just wrists :P


Were invol​ved in somet​hing you'​ll never​ forge​t?​
yup.


Tripp​ed over a coffe​e table​?​
don't actually have one.

Dyed your hair?​
no :[

Came close​ to losin​g your life?​
nope


Saw one of your favor​ite bands​/​artis​ts live?​
you kidding? my mum wouldn't let me see my favorite artists :P


2008:​Frien​ds and Enemi​es

Did you meet any new frien​ds this year?​
yessir


Did you hate anyon​e?​
yessir

Do you have any regre​ts when it comes​ to your frien​dship​s?​
yeah kinda.


2008:​ Your BIRTH​DAY!​

Did you have a cake?​
ICE CREAM NOMZ!


Did you have a party​?​
nope. just family :]


Did you get any prese​nts?​
yup.


2008:​All about​ YOU

Did you chang​e at all this year?​
I should think so


Did you chang​e your style​?​
not really.


Were you in schoo​l?​
Yes.


Did you get good grade​s?​
Hopefully

Did you have a job?
yes.

Did you drive​?​
Yessir

Did you own a car?
nope. its registered to my padre

Did anyon​e close​ to you give birth​?​
nooo?


Did you move at all?
nope.

Did you go on any vacat​ions?​
kinda

Would​ you chang​e anyth​ing about​ yours​elf now?
one or two things.


2008:​ Wrap UP:

Was 2008 a good year?​
yeah, I think it has been.

Do you think​ 2009 will top 2008?​
most probably


IN THE YEAR 2008 I CONFE​SS THAT I.​.​.​.


​Kisse​d in the snow?​
why? thats dumb. snow's cold.


Had your heart​ broke​n?​
Nope.


Went over the minut​es on your cell phone​?​
nope.

Done somet​hing you'​ve regre​tted?​
nope

Paint​ed a pictu​re?​
yeah, but got mad and painted over them, then ran outta paints.

Wrote​ a poem?​
a few.


Ran a mile?​
perhaps all together :]


Shopp​ed at Holli​ster or Aberc​rombi​e and Fitch​?
nope.


Poste​d a blog on MySpa​ce?​
>.< yes.

Visit​ed a forei​gn count​ry?​
nope.

Cut in a line of waiti​ng peopl​e?​
don't recall


Told someo​ne you were busy when you weren​'​t?​
probably


Cooke​d a disas​trous​ meal?​
nope.

Lied about​ how old you were?​
in jest, I'm sure.

Prank​ calle​d someo​ne?​
nah.


IN 2008 I.​.​.​.​.


​Broke​ a promi​se?​
a few, I'm sure.


Lied?​
yes.


Cried​ over a broke​n heart​?​
nope.


Disap​point​ed someo​ne close​?​
quite a few times i'm sure

Hid a secre​t?​
:/ yeah.


Prete​nded to be happy​?​
I am incapeable of pretending emotions. I wear those fuckers on my sleeve.


Slept​ under​ the stars​?​
as cool as that would be? no :/

Kept your new years​ resol​ution​?​
I usually don't make those


Forgo​t your new years​ resol​ution​?​
see above


Met someo​ne who chang​ed your life?​
probably.


Chang​ed your outlo​ok on life?​
yeah.

Sat home all day doing​ nothi​ng?​
As little as I could.


Prete​nded to be sick?​
no.



Given​ up on somet​hing/​someo​ne impor​tant to you?
nah. I try to stick to things. when I want to.


Lost somet​hing expen​sive?​
I'm sure.


Learn​ed somet​hing new about​ yours​elf?​
I'm too jealous for my own good?

Tried​ somet​hing you norma​lly would​n'​t try and liked​ it?
not that I know of. Iunno.

Made a chang​e in your life?​
not too many

Found​ out who your true frien​ds were?​
already knew that.

Met great​ peopl​e?​
yeah.

Staye​d up til sunri​se?​
a few times

Cried​ over the silli​est thing​?​
eh. you could say that.


Had frien​ds who were drift​ing away from you?
who doesn't?


Spent​ most of your money​ on food?​
yup.

Had a fist fight​?​
nosir


Gotte​n sick?​
violently.


Liked​ more than 5 peopl​e at the same time?​
nope.


Becam​e close​r with a lot of peopl​e?​
maybe not alot, but at least one, maybe two or three

damn

I hate being home alone. I can't do anything, can't go anywhere, and can't seem to enjoy anything I usually would. I could never live alone. I also hate not being able to help. not being able fix things, or just erase them out of history. I would give anything to fix things. to make things better.

Birth, The Faint

In the beginning there was semen,
In a deep mouth of flesh,
And the crest I traveled,
On a wave of virile mess.

Through a tunnel of mucus,
And on toward a vault,
With tourists and traffic,
I just paced myself.

Not I as my whole self,
Just the half that I had,
Before greeting the rest,
Of my better half.

A connection was made,
Through a shared love of science,
And vows were taken,
A seed was hired.

A cavern of fluid,
Brought shape to my hide,
In the months that remained,
Till the time of my life.

I thrashed for the reason,
Of spilling from the crack,
To the palms of a doctor,
To a towel full of scraps.

My brains wouldn't fit,
Through her organ of sex,
An incision was made,
With a scalpel and mask.

I should have noticed the beauty,
And not how it hurt,
Wet like a cherry,
In the bloodbath of birth

coolest song ever. its really kind of fascinatings, its the journey of a baby. I dunno why, but it just is a really cool idea for a song in my opinion

How reluctantly the mind consents to reality!
-Norman Douglas

this quote made me think of kyle :]

A dress makes no sense unless it inspires men to want to take it off you. ~Françoise Sagan

my new favorite quote.

"People see themselves as the center of the universe and judge everything as it relates to them." Pilgrim, Peace

So, in accordance with the new title, I want you all from here on out to send me stuff. anything. pictures, videos, quotes, topics, headlines, you name it. if you send it to me, it will end up on my blog. you can even send requests as to whatI should do with it. kay? so anything that you come across, be it on the web, in a book, or IRL, gimme. If I own the center of the universe, I better start gettin more universal, neh?

thanks guys,
Management

P.S.
by send it to me, I mean email me. I'll have a seperate inbox made for this in just a sec so I can post it on a blog and not worry about getting flooded with "male enhancement" shit in my home mailbox.

P.P.S.
The address is "thehub@mac.hush.com". its in the text box right under the blog description at the top (the box that says "as a matter of fact, the universe does revolve around me")

On a mor lolzerzy note:

If only the school had a kitteh plow divishun
shit wud get dun.

Godamn II

well, it appears tommorow is finals day, and as such plans can be moved. still pissed that my kimberly anne has to stay home alone all day,though. I really hate snow.

goddamn.

and we couldn't have a snowday some other time, why?
theres frost on the ground. fucking FROST! and they close school? so all my perfect attendance was for naught, and I have to sit at home fucking all day, alone. thats my reward? plans are fucked, my day is fucked. I hate snow. and don't bother with the "life's not fair" posts. I know. I'm sulking. go away. I'm going back to bed. not that I'll be able to sleep.

survey.

Likes/Dislikes

1
- Favorite Color.

Depends on whatfer?

2
- Worst Color..

Every color looks good in some situation. but, if I had to say? probably lavender

3
- Favorite Number..

2

4
- Favorite Animal..

couldn't tell you. probably tigers. or giant squid, p'r'aps?

5
- Least Favorite Animal..

Dogs? no, spiders.

6
- Favorite Flower..

wild sunflowers

7
- Favorite Food..

don't know. depends. right now I feel like thai, so thai it is.

8
- Worst Food..

ummmmm....green stuff. and probably, Based on what I've had, greek

9
- Favorite Junk Food..

dirt pudding :]

10
- Worst Junk Food..

lucas *barf*

11
- Favorite Restaraunt..

I like the islands alot. and fudruckers. mmm. chzburgerz.

12
- Favorite Ice Cream Flavor..

strawberry mixed with white chocolate in a waffle cone.

13
- Favorite Candy..

kisses. specially cherry cordial kisses :]

14
- Favorite Alcoholic Drink..

champagne? i havn't really had enough variety to have a favorite.

15
- Favorite NON Alcoholic Drink..

I love water. and cranberry juice, and iced tea. mmmm.

16
- Worst Alcoholic Drink..

Iunno

17
- Worst NON Alcoholic Drink..

soda.

18
- Favorite Genre of Music..

punk. and techno. and indie.

19
- Favorite Radio Station..

have none.

20
- Favorite Band/Artist..

ummm....Beck. followed by the They Might Be Giants.

21
- Worst Band/Artist..

Nickleback

22
- Favorite Song..

changes with the seasons. right now? "Babydoll" by the Fratellis

23
- Worst Song..

not sure.

24
- Worst Genre..

country.

25
- Favorite Book..

DUNE!

26
- Worst Book..

can't recall.

27
- Favorite Type of Movie..

Sci-Fi

28
- Worst Type of Movie..

horror. I don't do horror.

29
- Favorite Movie..

ummmm...I doon't know off the top of my head. I know independance day is one of my favorites, and a more recent favorite is everything is illuminated.

30
- Worst Movie Ever..

Cloverfield.

31
- Favorite TV Show..

Stargate SG-1

32
- Worst TV Show..

I don't know. I don't watch alotta tv.

33
- Favorite Season of the Year..

summer, plz.

34
- Worst Season..

winter. DO NOT WANT!

35
- Best Friend..

Kimberly Anne Case

36
- Worst Enemy..

Don't have one.

37
- Favorite Day of the Week..

sat./sun.

38
- Least Favorite Day of the Week..

tuesdays.

39
- Favorite Sport..

SOCCER!

40
- Sport You Hate..

mmmm....Baseball.

41
- One thing you cant get enough of..

:]

42
- One thing you hate more than anything..

secrets.

i.

hate my Tourette's Guy habit. I want to stop. I hate my little "outbursts." so I want to be quite for a few days. aimaiable, and only vulgar at appropriate times. I expect you guys to hold me accountable.

thanks :]

People Are Different

I know this may not come as a surprise to many of you, but they really are. I never ever realized this. Everyone is. When we're sad, different things cheer us up, when we're angry, different things calm us down. It's amazing,t he complexity of people, that everyone is completely and utterly different.

And nothing is more satisfying than learning someone else. learning everything about them, and knowing them as well as you know yourself. I love the feeling after helping someone get through something.

lame post, I know. I don't think straight. I hate it.